Friday, December 11, 2009


ITS CHRISTMAS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which is the most wonderful time of the year and i'll fight any one who says otherwise! I have my tree up, I am about 50% done with my shopping I just need to finish cleaning and decorating and finish all of my sewing projects and I will be ready for a beautiful Christmas!Also if anyone is interested I make and sell these apples, they can be used as heating pads or as ice packs and a set of 3 is $10, they are a perfect gift for children because they can be used as a toy and for first aid they are also a great gift for teachers since they are in the shape of apples and once again they can be used for first aid
I also make these Catch-all Baskets, this one has a cute vintage look but I can make it just about any size or shape.

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

anxiety and depression

Where to start? I suffer with both anxiety and depression, of the 2 I prefer anxiety and here is why: recently my mother Helen was talking the her brother Mark and he was telling her that his son wan missing classes and his excuse for this was fear, nervousness, and an ill feeling. My uncle said he thought his son was just being lazy (I may be misquoting) but one thing my mom said was for sure is that my uncle thought it was a load of crap. Helen was quick to tell him that I had been suffering with anxiety for years and in fact it is very real and can be very serious, once he had been informed that it is likely to be genetic and that a close blood relative suffered with the same thing he was more open to the reality that this might be genuine, so he asked Helen how I treated it (medically) Helen answered back that I treat it with good self esteem and nothing else! This answer in this day and age I feel is mostly unheard of for several reasons, we live in a time where we are lucky enough to have helpful medications that help keep our minds and bodies on track if we are consistent and willing to put in a little effort, or a less positive outlook is that we live in a society that says "It's not your fault" you are not responsible for your actions and feelings so you are free to do whatever you like. let me give a brief description of anxiety for anyone who has no idea what it feels like, its feeling physically sick, its fear in your mind and down in the pit of your stomach its stress with or without a cause. Have you ever had a test you didn't study for, or a job interview that was extremely important and felt any or all of these things? My friend once told me that his brother-in-law would have serious anxiety before every football game. Now imagine having those sick nasty stressful feelings about going to work, about going to church, about Thursday, about ANYTHING! Most people understand this feeling because they have felt parts of it before, but I have it all the time! Over nothing. In fact I have it now, but the difference between me and most is what I choose to do with this feeling, and I choose to do absolutely nothing. I do not let this feeling rule me, I HAVE to be responsible I CAN NOT sit at home all day and ignore my responsibilities because I don’t feel good, I know what I'm dealing with so I deal with it.

Depression can be a lot like anxiety for me because it happens suddenly and often without cause, I don’t hate being depressed because it happens rarely and I feel strongly that in order to understand what it's really like to be happy and kind you have to understand what it's like to be truly and genuinely sad and unkind. A few years ago I was living in Utah and going to a small school called LDSBC at one point I started having some pretty serious depression so I spent a lot of time alone and stopped being my friendly outgoing self. For some reason this really bugged my roommates, in their defense I had let depression get to me and it was winning out over school and cleaning and everything else. So finally my roommate decided she'd had it with me and wanted to know what my problem was, I told her I was just sad so she asked me why and I answered honestly that I didn’t know why, that answer was NOT ok so she pressed me and pressed me for a reason that I did not have saying that I couldn’t be sad without a reason, I asked her if it was possible to be happy without a reason and of course her answer was yes, my answer would have been yes, I'm happy all the time without a reason, but this time I was sad without a reason and she did not approve which made me even more depressed. Being sad is not what I dislike so much, although I choose to be happy most of the time I'm okay with being sad. What I dislike about it is that I give myself a free pass to be mean, I tell myself it's okay, but I know it's not and it makes my heart even more sad then it was. At the moment I'm having a little depression, all I wanted to do all day was lay down, I just needed to lay down and sleep so when I finally got my chance to do that very thing of course all I could do was lie awake with my mind buzzing and listen to Jacobs passive aggressive snoring. UGG! I QUIT!! How's that for a positive outlook.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009


I love a clean home, but I HATE CLEANING!!!!!! Let me just put that out there before I write this blog. Any one that knows me or has known me since high school knows what a disaster I'm willing to live in if it means avoiding cleaning. But now that I'm a nanny/house keeper, a married woman and I live in my own place it means I clean and CLEAN AND CLEAN AND CLEAN!!! It feels like its all I do and I know its only going to get worse. I need to take some kind of course on how to clean and organize and how to keep it that way FOREVER! Or I need to hire a maid of my own! Elizabeth! Jessica! wont you please come clean and organize for me! or my mommy! I guess what makes me crazy is I clean everyday, but my house is never clean! how does that work? I dont know when the last time I made my bed was! this is stressful!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Blog Stalker

I think I have a problem! I cant even tell you how much time I spend flipping though new and different Blogs envying the cuteness of others and coveting their ideas! I want the money and space they have to do all their amazing crafts. So if you know of a blog you think I just have to see post a comment so I can continue my stalking!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

vote on my new style!

Hey everybody! go to and pick my new DO!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Hand bags

My mother has been telling me not to put my purse on her counter tops as long as I can remember, Now that I live away from her I'm glad she taught me that lesson because i rarely set my purse on my own counter. One thing I have never done is set my purse on a bathroom floor! It horrifies me when ever I see a purse on a bathroom floor, but its even more horrifying when its a brand name, like a LV or a Burberry or a Coach, shouldn't people know better?


Have you ever noticed girls who set their handbags on public toilet floors, then go directly to their dining tables and set it on the table? Happens a lot!
It's not always the 'restaurant food' that causes stomach distress. Sometimes 'what you don't know will hurt you'!

Read on................
Mom got so upset when guests came in the door and plopped their handbags down on the counter where she was cooking or setting up food. She always said that handbags are really dirty, because of where they have been.

It's something just about every woman carries with them. While we may know what's inside our handbags, do you have any idea what's on the outside? Women carry handbags everywhere; from the office to public toilets to the floor of the car. Most women won't be caught without their handbags, but did you ever stop to think about where your handbag goes during the day.

'I drive a school bus, so my handbag has been on the floor of the bus a lot,' says one woman. On the floor of my car, and in toilets.'

'I put my handbag in grocery shopping carts and on the floor of the toilet,' says another woman 'and of course in my home which should be clean.'

We decided to find out if handbags harbor a lot of bacteria... We learned how to test them at Nelson Laboratories in Salt Lake, and then we set out to test the average woman's handbag.

Most women told us they didn't stop to think about what was on the bottom of their handbag. Most said at home they usually set their handbags on top of kitchen tables and counters where food is prepared.
Most of the ladies we talked to told us they wouldn't be surprised if their handbags were at least a little bit dirty.

It turns out handbags are so surprisingly dirty, even the microbiologist who tested them was shocked.

Microbiologist Amy Karen of Nelson Labs says nearly all of the handbags tested were not only high in bacteria, but high in harmful kinds of bacteria....

Pseudomonas can cause eye infections
Staphylococcus aurous can cause serious skin infections
And salmonella and e-coli found on the handbags could make people very sick

In one sampling, four of five handbags tested positive for salmonella, and that's not the worst of it. 'There is fecal contamination on the handbags' says Amy. Leather or vinyl handbags tended to be cleaner than cloth handbags, and lifestyle seemed to play a role.

People with kids tended to have dirtier handbags than those without, with one exception.

The handbag of one single woman who frequented nightclubs had one of the worst contamination's of all. 'Some type of feces, or possibly vomit' says Amy.

So the moral of this story is that your handbag won't kill you, but it does have the potential to make you very sick if you keep it on places where you eat. Use hooks to hang your handbag at home and in toilets, and don't put it on your desk, a restaurant table, or on your kitchen counter top.

Experts say you should think of your handbag the same way you would a pair of shoes. 'If you think about putting a pair of shoes on your counter tops, that's the same thing you're doing when you put your handbag on the counter tops.'

Your handbag has gone where individuals before you have walked, sat, sneezed, coughed, spat, urinated, emptied bowels, etc!

Do you really want to bring that home with you?

The microbiologists at Nelson also said cleaning a handbag will help. Wash cloth handbags and use leather cleaner to clean the bottom of leather handbags.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Eight years ago today. I was a Sr. in high school getting ready for school, as I was walking into my loft area my younger brother Adam ran up the stares and told me that a plane had flown into the twin towers, obviously I was a little confused so I casually walked down stairs to see what he was talking about. I saw it for the first time one building on fire and shock and sadness hit, I like many assumed that this pilot had lost control or gotten confused and ran into a tall building, but a few moments later another plane crashed into the second tower. I sat there watching in horror as both buildings fell down, as another plain crashed into the Pentagon and another into a wooded area. During and after the attack I sobbed for the broken families, 3 buildings full of innocent people, 4 plains full of innocent passengers, and a world full of people whose lives and history had been changed forever. Last year I promised myself that I would not let another Sep. 11th go unnoticed. I will NEVER forget!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

We gave blood today

Today Jacob and I gave blood, the last time we did it I just woke up and gave blood. I didn't eat in advance and I maybe had one cup of water before we got there, I gave all of my blood and walked out the door feeling great! That was NOT the case today! Before Jacob and I went to donate we went out for a nice lunch and I drank a lot of water. I felt fine sitting in my reclining chair squeezing my PVC pipe but the second I got out of that chair I felt a little dizzy, I walked over to get my free cookies but felt like I was going to

A: Throw up
B: Pass out
or C: fall over from spinning dizziness
plus I was very hot!
All I could think about on the way to a chair was HURRY and sit down so you don't pass out in a puddle of your own vomit, I was lucky and i made it there on time, but I am also unlucky b/c they said all those side effects would dissipate in about 15 min but I'm still having them, oh and the arm they took the blood from still really hurts. I am still dizzy and nauseous from time to time. I am especially dizzy right now, so I am going to end this post.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Homework Time

So now that Jacob has started school I spend a lot of time sitting quietly while he does his homework, I really want him to do well so I try not to distract him to much. I'll do things like clean the house, read my scriptures, work out, or sleep, but tonight I dont want to do any of the stuff so i'll blog. I am just so proud of him right now! he is such a good provider. He works a full time job pays the bills, is takeing 7 credits worth of classes and still makes the time to be the best husband ever. Sometimes I feel guilty that I'm not doing as much as him but he never makes me feel bad about it, he's always happy to her about my low key days, he's never upset when our house is a mess or when I forget to do his laundry. I love him so much! I guess the least I can do is be quiet and stay out of his way while he does his homework, and I know I'm the whole reason hes doing it anyway.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Jacob loves pillows

Jacob has this weird need to put a pillow over his belly when ever he sits down, its slightly strange so it does bother me a little. Today he took it kind of far and surrounded himself with pillows. What is he hideing from? Its a good thing I love him!

Friday, August 28, 2009

A little bit of everything

This is my 26th Birthday, I let Jacob buy me a huge balloon and it made me exteremely happy
Victoria bought me this beautiful cake
Here are my 2 home made Birthday treats. These Rice krispis treats.

Here is my nightmare of a cake! it tasted awful!!!! plus it was completly jimmy rigged! we had no candles so my mom put a cup cake wrapper in the corner and called it a "party hat" and my dad scribbled happy birthday in caramel ice cream topper. worst cake ever!!!

Jacob loves beads!

In Utah

Monday, July 20, 2009

dreaming of the beach

There has been a lot going on, and every time something happens I think to myself I should blog about that, but whenever I sit down in front of the computer I have a new distraction. this week my parents are going to Newport Beach to visit some friends that live there and they are bringing Logan with them, I was planning on going with them but after talking to Jacob I realized that I need to stay here to earn some extra money. Its killing me that I haven't been on vacation in so long! All I could think about for a while was how nice it would be to go to the beach and have some sun on my face and some sand in my crack, but we need the money and I have gotten so fat that I'm afraid I might be mistaken for a beached wale plus I really need to be waxed before some parts of my body go on display. Oh well! there is always next summer.

Sunday, February 1, 2009


Jacob and I have been so busy recently, we have a lot to do and very little time to do it all in. 2 weeks ago my parents took Logan to Utah with them on a trip, from what I was told he had an absolutely fantastic time! Logan also gained several new fans, including the whole Scorsby clan,and my uncle Bob who has already suggested making a visit to az in the near future specifically to see Logan. My poor mom, she goes and goes and goes w/ that kid and she rarely gets a rest. Jacob and I had a great time that week, we were able to do all those things we had been putting off and it felt wonderful to sleep in and spend time with Jacob.

sometimes its strange how quickly everything can turn around, Jacob and I had planned on spending a nice little weekend together, we woke up on sat. morning and headed out to grab breakfast, we brought it home and right as we were about to sit down to eat my mom called me, she asked me to come over to her house right away, she told me that she needed me to watch Logan b/c my dad had just gotten in a really bad accident. I guess what happened was that while he was traveling in the bike lane a van turned right in front of him, he had a little bit of time to break, so luckily he slowed down a little but not enough, he ended up crashing into them and his head and body broke out the passenger side window,this knocked him out and when he came to they called my mom.
he broke his jaw but they didn't have to wire it shut, they attached a permanent plate to it, he has a lot of cuts and bruises, his left hand looks like a rubber glove blown up because its so swollen, but over all he is ok, well he will be ok. he is alive and that is the most important thing.
I have been on major emotional overload! and I'm sick to boot. I just want all my loved ones to know how much i care about them b/c everything can change in an instant.