#12

Ok so I admit it! I'm bad blogger! I know this blog wont makeup for me lameness but hopefully some people will forgive me. Jessica is in town this week, she is such a crap starter! its ridiculous, poor kaddy she just sits quietly and puts up w/ it. Last night we went out to dinner then started a fire and tonight we went to like 5 different places and rocked out in the car, OH and we tried do scare dizzle and bizzle but it was a no go, all in all its been a great weekend so far!

#11

My 8 obsessions.....8 things that I am passionate about...

1. Jacob Anderson
2. My family
3. My friendships
4. My religion
5. Makeup
6. Food
7. Sleep
8. Love

8 words or phrases I use often...

1. Jacob
2. No
3. We'll see
4. I have no money
5. I can't breath
6. I love you
7. Thank you
8. Please

6 things I want to do before I die...

1. Have a baby
2. No longer be dependent on my parents
3. Go on a shopping spree
4. See all the awesome chicks I know fall in love get married and make families
5. Buy my own home
6. maintain a healthy diet


8 things I have learned from my past..

1. Don't cry over spilt milk, sometimes crying helps; like when you need something from a teacher or a sales person or if you just need an emotional release, but most of the time its a waste of time.
2. Be careful who you trust
3. Give people the benefit of the doubt
4. It's worth waiting for
5. I wish I had liked myself better in my teens, I was a really amazing person and I didn't even know it b/c I was to busy hating myself, I think I would have been a better person and I would have expected more out of myself if I had only known just how great I was. I cant change that now but I just want people to know that now there are days I look in the mirror and love everything about the person I see and except her for all her faults, I can even do that looking at myself naked :)
6. Don't lie, its not worth it
7. Any one can change if they really want to
8. Parents are weird

8 places I would love to go or see..

1. New Zealand
2. 4 Corners
3. New York City
4. Canada
5. Spain
6. The future
7. Hawaii
8. Aspen Grove w/ my family


8 things I currently need or want...

1. My husband
2. Money
3. A maid
4. No debt
5. less stress
6. a perscriptin
7. Money
8. To lose 20 pounds

#10

Today is my sisters birthday. I hope it was a really nice birthday for her.
Have you ever notice that when one thing falls apart, everything falls apart! Today Jacob called me and told me that his school un enrolled his from his class for a day late payment, then 15 min later he called me and told me that his computer was dead, like broken dead, then Larry tells me that he has to take the computer he was going to let us use back. oh well! like my mom says crying doesnt fix anything, so i wont. life has been so on and off, good then bad good then bad! its nice to have supportive friends and family! and at least i get to sleep in everyday.

Today in church I realized that September 11th passed me by and I didn’t even accolade it. Jacob asked me what the big deal was, I looked at him in disbelief and told him that I feel very strongly about the 11th average people became heroes that day, children lost parents, wife’s lost husbands, husbands lost wife’s, parents lost children and the list goes on. afterwards we all stood together as Americans, not democrats or republicans, not blacks or whites. But brothers and sister who had just faced a terrible blow! The world changed that day, b/c of September 11th so much has changed. I never want to become desensitized to what happened on that day, I never want a September to pass when I don’t think of it and at least acknowledge that it happened. i cried for those people! I cry for those people still! I LOVE AMERICA AND I ALWAYS WILL!

#8

Jacob and I had a hard time getting out the door for church today, not b/c its so early in the morning (we had been going to 8:30 church and this week our ward started @ 11.) it was b/c I was having an emotional time, anyone who knows what’s going on w/ my family right now might understand, I woke up to a text from my brother in law and that put me in a foul mood w/ Jacob for some reason. I was being mean and nasty! But after my shower I dried my hair and wondered out to the kitchen where I had gotten another text from my brother in law, this one had a different effect then the first; I walked over to Jacob on the couch, wrapped myself in a blanket and broke down into tears! I cried for at least 15 min and told Jacob all the thoughts that had been in my mind but to painful to talk about up until then. Jacob did what any good husband would do, he held me close and told me he loved me. I just kind of feel a little overwhelmed and hurt.

Anyway Jacob and I got a calling in our ward today, we are now primary workers, for at least the next 5 months, I'm excited, and I like kids.

#7

I feel like I really haven't had a moment to myself over the last 2 weeks, last week Andrea was in London so my mom and I were looking after Logan, and to add to that Joseph was in town w/ his wife and wonderfully rambunctious children. Logan was such a good boy and I loved meeting my sweet niece and nephew! Vincent and me became fast buddies. On Mon me and my mom took them to superstition mall so they could ride on the merry-go-round, then my mom took them shopping for a winter wardrobe and they got some great stuff! Then the day before they left I got a call @ my apt from my sister-in-law Dawn asking if there was anyway I could come over, apparently he lost a little blue balloon and he was so sad! he started crying and saying "I want Aunt Rachel!" yeah he won a place in my heart big time with that. Destinee was also cute and sweet, they called her Ducky for a nick name b/c she walked like a duck. After they left we thought all was well and that we would get back to life as usual but my family came to find out that Andrea is leaving on an extended vacation and leaving Larry and Logan here w/ us so now everyone is needing to reschedule their life's to meet Logan's needs and i will continue to have limited to no time to myself! anyway Logan is yelling at me so i better post this quick!

#6

I cant believe its only tuesday! This week is going to be soooo long.
All my friends have situations going on in their lives and its so interesting to see how much we have grown, we went from having all this teenage drama to having adult problems, Jessica and i are both struggling w/ money, and Kaddy and B are struggling in their love life's. over all i'm really happy for Jessica right now though, she seems really happy in her relationship, the whole time she was here she didn't stop talking about Jordan. I talked to B for hours yesterday, we talked about what she wants in her life and what id like to see for her, we talked about her love life and mine. it was great, I love everything about that chick!
Andrea leaves for London today, and she basically said she wouldn't compensate me, so i'm going to do service and hope that the lord will bless me for it. Its hard to think that a mother could leave her child for 5 days and just think we should watch him out of love but I will, b/c i have nothing to gain from being as stubborn as her.
yesterday Jacob and I spent the evening at his parents house, I guess i spend so much time at my parents house that I never think about being home sick, but i can tell that jacob was missing the house he grew up in and his family. He was in such a good mood just hanging out over there. i love to see him happy. Its important to me when all the people i love are happy.